*Sigh Cry Dance*

I doubt anyone reads this. And if by chance some does, you're in luck. You get to listen to my mental problems for a paragraph or two. Whopee. Lucky you.

I'm having some problems. Mental issues. I won't go into detail. But I've done nothing wrong. Yet still, something is still out of place. I feel lost. I've been struggling with depression for almost six months now. Not like I need to be in an institution or anything. But bad enough I am affected on an almost daily basis in some form.
I don't like my body or myself. I'm very unhappy with many aspects of my life. I just don't understand what's happened to me or what caused this change. I can't help but remember the end of last year, when I was so happy and confident in my self. What happened? I used to understand things. But now I'm completely discouraged. In dance for instance, it seems no matter how hard I practice (which I do quite a bit-almost everyday), I'm not progressing. I'm always second best. I don't get anywhere. Which sucks because I love dance. I want to dance. But more importantly, I strive to dance well and not look ridiculous. I want to dance on the BYU-Ballroom team someday. But I don't think I will ever be that good. And it's not just dance I'm having a hard time with. But my writing and my singing and most of the things I thought I was good at.

I feel like a chicken with my head cut off. I'm running everywhere. But getting nowhere because I've lost me head and I'm dying.

And I'm writing this because I don't know what to do. I don't know who to talk to. And if somebody happens to read this, please don't tell me to pray because I do already thank you.

I don't feel as if I can talk to my parents about it. I don't want to burden my boyfriend or friends with my negativity. But at the same time, I can't keep holding all these emotions in. They're just building up and up and soon I'm going to snap.

Well that's enough poor me, poor Bailey for today. I promise my life isn't horrible. It's just strains my brain sometimes. :)

BUSY BUSY BUSY

That's life right now. Busy. Busy. Busy. Like a Bee. AND EXPENSIVE! Holy crap you pay a leg to clothe your own back these days. Who knows how long it'll take to pay off my prom dress along with my AP exams...There goes my college education, social security, and life savings.